First Ever Hate Comment!

Was looking through my spam box in my Comments section in my WordPress dashboard when I came upon this interesting spam comment :

excuse me, best blog of all time? Could you be more disgusting? A bitch like you, a beginner like you to be nominated? Hahahahahaha… you’re not even original, attention seeking whore. Laugh at yourself, call yourself a beauty? Then the man will have to cry because there ain’t any other beauties left. You just don’t know how to blog. Nevermind, I will still stalk on you! 😀

by Nevermind My Name

Omg, when I saw this, I was laughing till I was practically rolling on the floor laughing with tears in my eyes. I mean, people, don’t you find this whole comment hilarious? I found it extremely hilarious and encouraging when I see this sort of comments.

When I found it, I pondered whether or not to leave it as a spam or just DE-SPAM it and let the whole world look at this immature fool (all this was done AFTER I have stopped myself from laughing…FORCED myself is more like XD) Anyway, what’s funny was the email and website she entered. Wanna know what it is? No, no, GUESS!!







What? You haven’t a clue? Oh well, since I’m in such an awesome mood now, even if it’s like…4.12am now, I’ll clue you in 😀

Name : Nevermind My Name
Email :
Website :

XD~ gawd, I really have to bow down to you for your “creative” ideas. Either that or your parents never taught you to be courteous to others 🙂 But to tell you the truth, this whole comment just serves to make me happier. You know why? Right before I saw your comment, I was about to announce that I have blog-withdrawal and would like to get a week’s break to just concentrate on my studies. But your comment just helped fire me up to write more 😛

Have you ever heard of “Nobody is ever perfect“? Well of course you have seeing as you aren’t a saint yourself by trying to crush other people’s hopes and dreams. But I got to admit, I truly like your blatant and to-the-point painful comment. I seriously do.

You’re the first honest person to tell me “You suck, go die, bish!” You know what my reaction was?

Oh wow!! I have hate comment!! Yay!! My FIRST EVER!!! Omg!! This is TRULY a moment to cherish 😀 Lol, I am just speechless o.o” the fact that you’re hitting on me is cause my BLOG in that category CAUGHT your eye, didn’t it? And if you plan to STALK me, then I MUST be THAT awesome now, aren’t I? So PLEASE, continue to stalk me 😀

Yes, that’s my reaction. Amazing huh? I feel like a damn jakun for reacting like that. But hey, it’s my first ever experience, need to act appropriately 😛

Ok, no more laughing at the “Jess Hater“. Now I shall proceed to analyzing your comments.

excuse me, best blog of all time? Could you be more disgusting? A bitch like you, a beginner like you to be nominated?

Like you have said in this part of your comment. “A beginner like you to be nominated?” And yes, see the emphasis on the NOMINATED? So how could I be disgusting for what my friend, thought as a joke to nominated me using my blog description I had a long time ago. Indeed, HOW? Were you jealous that I got nominated and not you? -pats- Don’t be sad, maybe someone will nominate you…if they can find your BLOG!!! Hahahahahaha!!! -Wipes tears from eyes- Omg…I’m back to laughing uncontrollably again.

Ok, ok. WAIT!! I’m not done yet. “A bitch like you” and what makes you think you’re not one yourself, honey? I can’t help it if I am. But babes, I don’t deny it. Do you?

Hahahahahaha… you’re not even original, attention seeking whore.

Oh I’m eccentric all right. Do you fall asleep listening to rock music? I do. But that’s not the point here. Oh wait…it IS!! What makes you think I’m not an “Original“? Is anyone really “Original” nowadays? Let me point out to you that even if you are wearing a pair Vincci shoes, you’re already NOT an original. Why? Cause you’re wearing someone else’s style and everybody is wearing the same thing. So practically anything and everything you do ISN’T original. And besides, when have I ever said I was original, hmm? I said I was “Eccentric” not “Original

Besides, I love attention. But never all the time. I only seek attention when I feel that I need to have some love showered upon me. And by posting this comment, aren’t you a “attention seeking whore” too?

Eccentric (adj.)
Departing from a recognized, conventional, or established norm or pattern.

Eccentric (n.)
One that deviates markedly from an established norm, especially a person of odd or unconventional behavior.

Original (adj.)
– Preceding all others in time; first.
– Not derived from something else; fresh and unusual
– Productive of new things or new ideas; inventive: an original mind.
– Being the source from which a copy, reproduction, or translation is made.

Original (n.)
– A first form from which other forms are made or developed
– An authentic work of art
– Work that has been composed firsthand
– Archaic The source from which something arises; an originator.

Unless you created the word “Original“, you’re not so original after all now, are you? NEXT!!!

Laugh at yourself, call yourself a beauty? Then the man will have to cry because there ain’t any other beauties left.

OHMUHGAH!! When did I say I was a beauty, honey? Never once did I mention I was a hot sexy chick did I? All I have is the name 😛 and it means INNER beauty, though I doubt you’d understand that seeing as how you have LOOPHOLES in every sentence that spews out of your comments. I wonder how you are as a person in whole, hmm? Doesn’t matter if the males don’t got no other females prettier than I am. I have wit and spark. And that’s enough for ME.

Besides, with men now only looking at outer beauty, I doubt they’ll look at me and go “Oh Lord!! Don’t tell me SHE’S the beauty?!?!“. They’d probably go “Hey Jess” and I’d go “Hey 🙂

You just don’t know how to blog. Nevermind, I will still stalk on you! 😀

If I didn’t know how to blog, I wouldn’t be replying to all your simple-minded statements now would I? I would probably slink away because you HAVE seen through my weakness. But NO!! I will not fall down at your feet and lick it just cause you’re an anonymous person and I’m “not“.

But then again, by all means, stalk me ^^ I’ll have the pleasure of dissecting your comments one by one. It’s been a long time since I’ve laughed so much. Truly, I have only you to thank ^_^!! If you have anymore hateful comments, bring it on, honey, I’ll take you up on the challenge. I have no idea what’s your damage. But when insulting someone, you should have the decency to link me back to you D: I would truly love to know who you are.

And besides, I have your IP address, I could most definitely ask any of my computer majored pals to get Intel on you and find you ^^ but then again, I like the trill of an argument~

Oh oh!! Guess what, with you helping me, my stats will go up again. And that’s all thanks to you! MUAXS!!~ thanks~


PS : You can see where he/she placed the comment, right here! When he/she should be commenting on it here!! Can a person over-laugh? If you say yes, then I’ve done it XD~

PPS : I wonder if he/she will come back and reply? I so hope he/she does. Which would then prove my whole point ^^ Well, talk to y’all laters~


Blog Addiction-Withdrawal Syndrome

Brief Explanation

Blog Addiction is when normal individuals with penned-up emotions deal in the higher power of “Journal Writing” where these individuals not only write their personal feelings into a electrical device called the “Computer” and transfer it into the online journal called a “Blog” and allows strangers to read their inner most darkest feelings. Blog Addiction occurs when these individuals, “Bloggers“, are finding a hard time getting off their “blogging device” and is unable to stop “blogging” for a certain amount of time. This term was discovered when time began and people started “blogging“.

It may be seen as a normal behavior since it resembles more of a child playing with their new toy. However, new toys will only last so long. Eventually all good things comes to an end. These blogging individuals would eventually fall prey to the Blog Addiction Withdrawal Syndrome..


Blog Addiction-Withdrawal Syndrome, commonly known as the Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow Procrastinators is a very common disease that with the increasing amount of bloggers appearing on the online scene, the rate of these blog-victims are increasing as this report is being done. It can result to physical and mental weakening, and destruction of families and relationships around the blogger.

Although these Bloggers with this syndrome are often seen as procrastinators, only a minority of them are really dedicated to their blogs. And it is also these group of people that suffer the most while the rest are just blog spammers.

Physical and Mental weakening includes irritability, anxiety and insomnia after the blogger has stopped writing articles for their blog. Destruction of families and relationships are caused when the blogger goes back into a withdrawn state where they feel a need to pent up their thoughts and emotions causing those around the blogger to keep their distance.

Blog Addiction-Withdrawal Syndrome are commonly found in almost every blogger in the world and even blogders (Blog Readers) which is becoming increasingly common.


  • Irritability;
  • Anxiety;
  • Insomnia;
  • Blog Craving;
  • Obsessive Compulsive Behavior towards real life events;
  • Subconsciously writing in a diary;
  • Withdrawal towards real life situations;
  • Distances from family and friends;
  • Consistently staring at the monitor;
  • Fingers are constantly tapping on any surface available.
  • Often goes “He said, open quotation mark, bold, italic, he loves me, unitalic, unbold, close quotation mark


Obsessivecompulsiveometer (OCM) as well as the Addictiveogram (AG) is needed to examine the level of addiction and the withdrawal of the blogger. It may show the level as to which the blogger is at with levels between sanity and insanity.


There are a few treatments available to cure this syndrome :

  • Buy a stress ball and finger it.
  • Get a “How to NOT get Blog Addiction-Withdrawal Syndrome for Dummies” guide.
  • Get rid of the computer and anything to do with it and migrate to the mountains and live as a hermit.
  • Re-blog again.
  • Go for rehabilitation.
  • See a psychiatrist or a psychologist

And if those does not work for you at all, well you just need a dosage of “You-shouldn’t-have-blog-in-the-first-place-if-you-can’t-handle-it” pills or perhaps a whack in the head with our “It-looks-like-a-hammer-but-it’s-scientifically-an-amnesia-tool“.

Disclaimer :
This is merely a research done by a student (ME) on what people often suffer from. Most of these syndromes are commonly found near you or near your family. Other syndromes are found to have existed but are rarely seen these days. If you are found to have these syndromes, please, please, please! Call 1800-FREAKS-ALERT or email us at to try and solve your diseases!! Or if you noticed your friends, family or anyone around you with these symptoms, please email us at!!

To find out more of our researched case studies, please refer to our list of “Case Studies“, thank you. Help us, help you!!


The Difference Between Men and Women

This is something I’ve come across while looking through my books and I thought it was hilarious and just wanted to share it with all of you out there needing a good laugh 🙂


If Laura, Suzanne, and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other “Laura”, “Suzanne”, and “Sarah”.

If Mike, Charlie, Dave, and John go out, they will refer to each other as “Fat Boy”, “Stinky”, “Dude”, and “Four-eyes”.

Eating Out

When the girls get their bill, out comes the pocket calculator.

When the bill comes, Mike, Charlie, Dave, and John will each throw in RM10, even though it’s only for RM32.50. None of them will have anything smaller, and none of them will actually admit they want their change back.


A woman will pay RM1 for a RM2 item that she doesn’t need but it’s on sale.

A man will pay RM2 for a RM1 item he needs.


The average number of items in the typical woman’s bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel.


A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after an argument is the beginning of a whole new argument.


Women love cats.

Men says they love cats, but when the women aren’t looking, men kicks the cats.


A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.


A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.


A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change, but she does.

A woman marries a man expecting the he will change, but he doesn’t.

Dressing Up

A man will dress up for weddings and funerals, and then only if they are his own.

A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the bins, answer the phone, read a book and get the post.


A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Ah children! A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears, hopes, and dreams.


Whoever wrote this at that time (year 2002) must have been disillusioned. As we all know, now, in the present, compared to the past, men and women have changed a lot. Where women are becoming more aggressive and men becoming softer. However, there are also men and women who live strictly to these traditional times where men are the ones who wear the pants in the house and women are there solely for the purpose of becoming a slave to the husband and a loving mother to the children.

I might sound discriminating and disgusted, but in actuality, I am most fascinated as to the how the human instinct works. For example, a man, dissatisfied with with work, goes home and vents their frustration at their wives and children. Women, feeling frustrated, feel it’s their right to shop endlessly and or, eat.

I however, embarrassed to say, I tend to vent and throw my frustration into my possessions. Not only that, I do hide in my room for days just staring out the window, not moving or eating, it’s like I’ve gone into a depressed state that I can’t seem to snap out from. But then again, my emotions usually run rampant for about a day or two and then I feel fine again. Yes, I tend to do that. The longest would be three days, I suppose…

Didn’t mean to bore you all 😛 was just ranting about my depression phase when all I wanted to talk about the difference between a man and a woman. Oh well… 😡 I’ll talk about it the next time then…till then, cheerios~



曾经,为失败而流泪,为失去而痛哭,将受创的伤口藏得隐隐密密,害怕一旦经过碰触,便会皮开肉绽, 永远不能痊愈.那时,每至夜深人寂的时刻,都会思潮起伏,所复失眠,无限的惆怅,直至泪水浸透了棉枕,红肿的双眼方才疲倦地合上,等待另一个新的明天到来,在那时候,几乎从未为明天及划过,难道昨日还会重现吗?渐渐地,生活只属于回忆,对明天不再春有任何希望,人也开始变得消极。


“路,是要靠自己去开拓的。” 这句话的意义一直都未曾被否定过。毕竟,漫长的道路是永远不会那么孤寂。快乐的时候要尽量珍惜,北上的时候也别自怨自艾,因为,黑暗的过后就会有黎明的到来; 没有经历过黑暗,就永远无法体会到黎明所带来的喜悦! 经得起挫折,生活才算真正有意义.



An Eye For An Eye

Alamak…last night, all cause of THAT chocolate, it’s causing me such pain D: I’m in terrible pain now and all this thanks to…


Yesterday, after doing some stuff over the computer, I went and watch some TV, Astro Channel 30 got Chinese Drama Series mah so must watch la. So anyways, I saw my sister eating chocolate and she didn’t bother to share so I mah ask her for some lo.

Reluctantly, she threw a few over to me and it was like I was bombarded by tiny bombs, painful D:!! So anyways, I ate the chocolates happily la seeing as how I’m a chocolate addict and it’s been a few days since I had any chocolates.

The thing is, after eating, my eye started to itch, so like any normal human being that is lazy enough to use the fingers/hand to rub at it, suddenly I cannot stop rubbing at it…the whole night I was just rubbing, rubbing and rubbing non-stop. It hurt so badly yet it’s itching like hell. It was driving me up the wall, I JUST had to get rid of the itch.

So after some hours of rubbing, my eye macam bengkak (swollen) already…my eye bigger than the other ( X _ x ) as if I was glaring at someone and to me it was like someone was forcing my swollen eye to close up!!! 😡

So frustrating la!!! And you know whose fault is it?! No la!! It’s not the chocolate’s fault, Chocolates are NEVER at fault!!! NEVEEERRR!!! It’s my SISTER‘s fault, I tell you!!!


What did she do? She gave me the Eye Infection which turns out to be the Bacterial Eye Infection!!!!! This eye is damn irritated OKAY!!! All I do is “cry” all day long. Some more wake up that time, eye cannot open at all. And yes, I said EYE not EYES cause only one side got infected…damn it man…how to study like this? Some more what’s worse, all of a sudden I get a sneezing fit!! Last night and today =.-” cannot stop sneezing at all.

But you know what’s funny, my sister is once again the STARTER or all DISEASES!!! The last time was during Chinese New Year, gave me the cough then I of course, had to pass it on to everybody else in my class WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

But now, it’s my study leave, got no one else to pass it to, but my sister however, she has had human contact since yesterday and guess what? 3 of her other friends got infected too LOL. Not to mention that we’re her family, so guess what? Yes, not only did I contract it but my mom as well as my maid got it too!!! HAHAHAHAHA But then ah, my maid is cooking lol so I’m expecting more red eyes soon =.-”

Anyway, we just came back from the clinic and like, we went in, registered and waited for our turn. There were only 4 other people there to see the doctor where only 2 were the patients and the other two just came to flirt with the nurses =.-” So when the nurse called the first fella in, we were expecting a long wait, but what do you know…he came out in less than FIVE MINUTES!!! Like WTF?!? The next fella went in and it was the same with him O.o!!!!!

So then, it was our turn 0.o” so we went in, all three of us, my mom, sis and me.And the doctor, looked at us and started prescribing medication for all of us without even asking more than one question O.o!!!!! Damn smart woi!!! So then my mom asked if she could give more eye medication cause there’s like 7 of us at home.

Doctor : “How many of you are there?

Mom : “7 of us.

Doctor : “Well seeing as this both…” (meaning me and my sis) “…are the more serious one, I’ll prescribe 2 bottles for each of them. Then I’ll give you another 3 for the rest of you since it’s not serious for you all yet.

Mom : “My maid also got it from her…” (my sis) “…and it’s already serious, so can you give her one as well?

Doctor : “Ok, then I’ll give 3 to each of them and 3 more for the rest.

Mom : “Why 3? There are four of us left

Doctor : “Well, it’s not serious right?

Mom : “No. But isn’t it better to give all four of us also?

Doctor : “You see, if you open all the bottles, it will be of no use in a months time, so it’s better if the four of you share cause it’s not serious and you don’t need as much as the other three.

Mom : “But there’s four of us, and what if it becomes worse overnight?

Doctor and Mom haggles and haggles and in the end, the doctor won due to her professional expertise. But hey, can’t blame my mom for being the mother hen 🙂 no wonder we love her ^^. During this whole visit, let me tell you, the doctor, she didn’t dare to look any of us in the eyes XD what a LAUGH!!!

So like that la, RM80 for the whole 10 minute visit and the medication which also includes PANADOLS, hey, my house got Panadol also okay, takyahlah give it to us and charge us some more!! ISH!! So blah, time for another round of medical eye drops…hopefully it gets better by Monday cause I have no more time to study T-T

See the pictures below!! That’s me with the “ZOMGWTFBBQ!!” infection…

Picture #1 : Look at that…my left eye is smaller compared to the right eye =.-”
Picture #2 : That’s a close up on the eyes, see the redness?

First time my eye is THAT red, kay!! Even when I cried over my beloved grandmother’s grave or when my daddy was admitted to the hospital or when my mom had a surgery or when I had a nervous breakdown and cried also not red. My eye was always grayish white…never red. And all this I have to thank my sister for =.-”



Eye Infections
Eye infections are characterized by discharge and usually crusting around the eyelid. This can sometimes cause the eyelid to be stuck shut in the morning. The eye is usually red and feels irritated like something is in it. Usually these symptoms come on quickly, within a day or two. It may spread from one eye to the next. The two most common causes of eye infections are bacteria and viruses.

Bacterial Eye Infections
Since this is caused by bacteria, antibiotics will kill the bacteria and make the infection get better. All of the antibiotic eye drops require a prescription and there are many different types of drops and ointments. Most of the drop require you to put one drop in the eye four times a day. The drops are comfortable and are well tolerated.

My Grasp on the Chinese Language…

今天学了新的东西。那就是什么呢?那就是华语啊!什么?不明我所说的话吗?对不起哦 😮

Translation :
Today I’ve learned something new. And what is that? Well, it’s the language! What? You don’t understand what I’m saying? Oh, sorry 😮

Ooops, heh, sorry about that. I was just so caught up in being able to type in Chinese on my computer 😮 I seriously never knew thus I’m like a lil kid with her new toy XD 讲到这一点呢...(regarding this…) I have never taken languages seriously at all…

There was a time when I have scoffed at the usage of Chinese, I never liked that language before. I never got the hang of all the difficult words cause for every sound, there are very many meanings. I couldn’t cope with any of it. I often get frustrated when it comes to Chinese studies.

Ashamed to say, I gave up Chinese studies in Form Two, beginning of the year. This was because I wasn’t doing very well in classes and I just couldn’t get what was so important about knowing the confusing language and in the end, I got a measly 9% in my first monthly exam in Form Two. Frustrated, I gave up and just quit.

My parents had a fit when they found out about this, yet they already knew it was a long time coming. I’ve already mentioned before that I didn’t want to go for Chinese classes anymore in Form One, but I guess they have put their hopes up too high…as they always do…so after informing my teacher about my decision, I was free. Free from having to do a subject I never liked, free to go on to bigger and better things, free to…oh what am I saying, now the Chinese language in itself represents a lot seeing as how China is becoming a bigger investment in the world, that is where current job opportunities lie.

But hey, let’s say I’m not going to be placed there to work. But in Malaysia, majority Chinese don’t know English very well. And as a future Psychologist, wouldn’t I be a banana among my clients? I wouldn’t be able to help anyone if I can’t communicate with them. So what am I suppose to do then? Use hand language?

So like that lah, I’ll be using Chinese more frequent after my exams but I won’t be forgoing my deteriorating grasp on English ever since I started studying in KTAR up to now in UTAR. If you can speak and write at least 3 languages, you’re a damn lucky person and a highly educated one in my eyes. I salute you*!

* : Terms and conditions apply.


Who is That?

Who is that guy? You know…the guy right next to you.
He’s waving at me from where you are standing.
Yes, he’s just beside you, smiling at me as if, he’s happy to see me.
But he doesn’t attempt to come up to me…just staying there right next to you.
It’s as if he doesn’t want to leave you, as if he’s afraid you’d leave him behind…

Why does he cling to you so? Do you know him?


What’s this you’re saying? What blasphemy are you talking about?
There’s no one beside me…but there’s a person right beside you waving at me.
Where are your eyes wandering to…he’s just beside you staring back at me…
Do you not see him? He’s smiling at me sadly as if he’s got some untold secrets.
Why are you sad? Are you hurt? What is wrong?

Oh please…why can’t you see he’s sad that you don’t notice him…


I don’t understand what you’re saying…what guy?
The only guy I see is right there next to you.
He’s frowning at me as if he’s pondering about our conversation…
Oh no!! Please don’t cry…have you no heart? Why aren’t you comforting him?
Why can’t you see him! And why is it that you say you someone is next to me…?

What is going on? Is something wrong with our eyes? Are we going mad?


Why is it that we can’t see them?
Am I blind or are you the blinded one?
He, the guy beside you, he’s saying that he’s used to it…
What are you used to, Mr. Man? How come only I can see you and not him too?
What’s that? I am also the blind fool? But how can that be? I can see you…

What going on? I don’t understand it. What’s going on?!?!


There is nothing wrong with your eyes, nonetheless, you are both blinded fools.
We have always been by your sides, from the moment you made a friend,
from the moment we shake hands and exchanged smiles.
We are always near you and around you, we take pride in your success
And cry with you in your downfall.
You have just never noticed us for we are always constantly with you
that you tend to get too used to it and take it for granted
Who are we? What are we?

We are the ones you call “My bestfriend”


Well, what I am trying to explain here is, don’t take your friends for granted, they’re human too, they feel hurt when they’re ignored or left behind for bigger and better things. Just because your life is WAY better now. They’re still your friends. They have been with you through good and bad times. So even if you have gone on to bigger and more influential things and friends, would you think these newer ones would stick by you forever, just like the old ones?

To quote these people, I’d say that it’s words best kept to heart :

One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives.
Euripides, Greek playwrite

I find friendship to be like wine, raw when new, ripened with age, the true old man’s milk and restorative cordial.
Thomas Jefferson

Too late we learn, a man must hold his friend
Unjudged, accepted, trusted to the end.

John Boyle O’Reilly

My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me.
Henry Ford

The most I can do for my friend is simply to be his friend. I have no wealth to bestow on him. If he knows that I am happy in loving him, he will want no other reward. Is not friendship divine in this?
Henry David Thoreau

PS : This piece is very erm…how do you say…not well-versed cause I can’t seem to express myself correctly. There probably will be a second version to this later on when I have the time…therefore, be harsh with the criticisms 😛


Tagged : Friendster Meme

Eh…just finished one tag by Cedric and 5xmom, and now got ANOTHER one!! But this time it’s not coming from a bat gua si lai or a hyperactive monkey. Instead it comes from a funny gay sotong who decided to tag me on this. Aiseh, Mr. Robb, such good timing for a meme cause I’m in the mood to do tags and memes today XD

Ok then, lets begin.

  1. Name one person who made you smile last night.
    • Person : None
    • Animal : Beloved Max, my kitty
    • TV Show : Phua Chu Kang
    • Events : The event where I had to help WL to dissuade KY to make her his GF just like in Romeo and Juliet. I’m acting as the person teaching Romeo the words XD
  2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
  3. Snoozing my noisy hand phone cause don’t wanna go for class but alarm is set at 7am and 8am. at 8.30am finally got fed up and switched it off and slept till 10.30am

  4. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
  5. Underworld - Evolution

    Watching Underworld – Evolution on DVD

  6. What was something that happened to you in 2006?
    • Finished my foundation courses;
    • Started University;
    • Was Greg’s GF;
    • Missed an exam;
    • Broke up;
    • Started a polygamy thing;
    • Becoming Shawn’s GF;
    • Went back with Greg;
    • Broke up with Shawn;
    • Started blogging.
  7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
  8. “Angel (my somewhat stupid German Shepherd dog) !!! Get out of my ROOM!!!!”

    Look at that…she just won’t lemme close my room door!!! Grrr…

  9. How many different things did you drink today?
  10. Water and 100 Plus

  11. What color is your hairbrush?
  12. Dark blue, almost black.

  13. What was the last thing you paid for?
  14. Errmmmmmm…….can’t remember…it’s been 5 days since I bought anything at all XD

  15. Where were you last night?
  16. Why here of course, blogging, sleeping and such. How come? Well the computer and the be is in my room 😛 so in conclusion, I was in my room 🙂

  17. What color is your front door?
  18. Brownish orange

  19. Where do you keep your change?
  20. Anywhere and everywhere. You’ll even find it on the floor XD

  21. What is the weather like today?
  22. Video : The weather
    Picture #1 : Before
    Picture #2 : After

  23. What is the best ice cream flavor?
  24. White chocolate!!! Wait…pistachio!!! No, no, wait!! Erm…errrrrrmmmmmmm!!! ALL!!! XD

  25. What is something you are excited about?
  26. The semester break!!! It’s coming soon!!! Whoo!!! Who wanna go out? Call me woi!!

  27. Do you want to cut your hair?
  28. Maybe yes, maybe no.

  29. Are you over the age of 25?
  30. Aye, didn’t I just talked about my birthday not long ago? Forget liao la…where got so old!! I’m :

    • 20 (Numerals)
    • Twenty (English)
    • 二十 (Chinese)
    • Twintig (Dutch)
    • Vingt (French)
    • Zwanzig (German)
    • Venti (Italian)
    • 二十 a.k.a Nijuu (Japanese)
    • 약관 (Korean)
    • Vinte (Portuguese)
    • двадцать (Russian)
    • Veinte (Spanish)
  31. Do you talk a lot?
  32. Not sure…but I DO know that I type a lot XD

  33. Do you watch The O.C.?
  34. The wha?

  35. Do you know anyone named Steven?
  36. Erm no…I don’t think so…-talks to cat- “Do I know anyone name Steven, Max?”

  37. Do you make up your own words?
  38. If you mean by “ebil”, “yuh”, “ouh”, “yus”, “wbies”, “bloggermajiggy” and such, then yea 😛

  39. Are you typically a jealous person?
  40. Yes, yes, yes, no, yes, no, yes, no, yes, no, no, yesno :O you decide 😀

  41. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “A”:
  42. Adila

  43. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “K”:
  44. Ken Jun (Hahahaha I forgot he has a surname LMAO) fine, fine, Kenny

  45. Who’s the 1st person on your received calls list?
  46. Woan Ling

  47. What did the last text message you received say?
  48. “tmr 10am to 10.30am will replace tis fri counseling pc 218..only half an tis fri dun haf counseling tutorial..”

    It’s word for word XD

  49. Do you chew on your straws?
  50. Nope, I like them UNCHEWED kthx!!

  51. Do you have curly hair?
  52. Yes, I have natural curls.

  53. Where is the next place you’re going?
  54. The kitchen to have dinner.

  55. Who is the rudest person in your life?
  56. The dude who said “What fucking excuse la!!” at the Tower Records KLCC for Chester Bennington’s debut on “Minutes to Midnight”

  57. What is the last thing you ate?
  58. Erm…Marble cake.

  59. Is marriage in your future?
  60. Not sure.

  61. What is the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks?
  62. Mr. Bean is the…wait…yea XD

  63. Is there anyone you like right now?
  64. Nooooooooooooooope

  65. When was the last time you did the dishes?
  66. Last Sunday when my maid went out with her friends.

  67. Are you currently depressed?
  68. I don’t know? I feel quite cheerful =D

  69. Did you cry today?
  70. Eh? I haven’t cried since erm…a while XC

  71. Why did you answer and post this?
  72. Cause that Squid, Robb, tagged me a meme so I’ll honor him by doing lo XD

  73. Tag 5 people who would do this survey :
  74. Need 5 people ah? What if got no 5 people to tag leh? 😡

    1. Roberta
    2. Kimberly
    3. Pinksterz
    4. Wan Yean
    5. Huei

    Heh, tada~ I finished all my tags ^^ happy liao 😛


Tagged : If This Were To Be My Last Post

Aiseh…today bangun, bath, brush teeth, change clothes, ate lunch, come back blog a “little bit” then go kap ha the PPS and I saw “this” and with a sneaking suspicion, I saw “THIS” as well woi!! After reading 5Xmom‘s blog and Cedric‘s blog I of course, breath a sigh of relief la cause it’s a 2 in 1 tag teaming against me lo. But then ah, 5xmom she tagged everyone in her list XD so it’s all Cedric XD!!! This tag had originated from this dude from “The Urban Monk

So oklah, thanks to both of them, I shall now tell you all what I would do and say if this were to be my last post due to the fact that the Blog Apocalypse has fallen upon mankind all thanks to the “bloody government” which I DO NOT DOUBT WILL HAPPEN!!! So okay lah lemme begin so I can finish this off before you all for asleep XD

Blog Apocalyse

Ok, assuming this is the last time I will be blogging due to this net-wide phenomenon I would probably go numb la cause I so samfu blog about things that are important to me and now cannot blog about those kinda stuff anymore so…I will say this :

Dear Readers,

You may or may not know me. But I am the author and owner of The Undeniable Beauty. I haven’t been blogging for very long. However I did have 2 other blogs before I came to achieve this Blogging Obsession. So anyways, when I thought back as to why those other 2 blogs failed to achieve any long term bloggings by me, I realize that I never dared to talk about my feelings before in the past. I chose to close myself up because inside, I knew that I’d be showing my weaknesses to others around me and that just sucks…

But that was years ago. However now, I realize that to have courage is to be afraid and be able to say that I am afraid. So what if I can’t tell people how I feel? I write because I WANT to and not think what other people WANT from me. I realize that living my the other people’s rules, by conforming to them is not actually helping me out in a good way. It’s just making me more like THEM, the society. Therefore I created The Undeniable Beauty to bring out the real me and the me that I want to see and others to wake up and smell and Bunga Tahi Ayam (Chicken Shit Flower) and say “Oh wow, so THAT’s her…what a difference…I’m not sure what to say…” yes, I don’t want to be the thorn in my ass just cause you want me to be that way. That’s just bull…

Many people have asked me before “Why The Undeniable Beauty? You’re not even beautiful. In fact, you’re downright fat and ugly” hahaha, thanks 😀 but hey, I don’t mind being ugly. At least I don’t look like you who looks just about like everyone in the world. The super thin, and slick kinda person. Reminds me of Barbie. What’s “beauty” anyways? Well, can you truly say that what you think is beautiful is what others think too? No 🙂 What I think is beautiful, to you would be downright ugly and is not worth mentioning about at all.

So what I am trying to say, don’t judge people before judging yourself. What might be ugly is not necessarily be bad and what is beautiful may not be good at all. Don’t you know? Most serial killers look pretty innocent and good looking and you would never think that person would ever kill. However, the most hardworking person who have slaved for your attention could be the most ugliest person in the world yet he would be the most beautiful individual cause he has a good heart. That’s what I think.

I don’t know if I can thank anybody for inspiring me to carry on with this blogging because all I can say is that without my feelings, I don’t think I would have continued, without my readers comments and support, I would have just left this to go to waste and just carry on in life as a common being, emotionless. Well, I should also thank my alter ego since she have helped me through to commit to this blog. My alter ego, is me. I would most of the times switch from my Id, ego and superego. They keep me sane and keep me true to myself.

So, according to my sources, this would be my last post ever on this blog and on all blogs for that matter…I shall consign myself to writing again in my diary and hide it away from your grubby eyes and shall never see my writings again. And all I can say is that we shall be able to get through this apocalypse with courage and hope that the “blogging ice age” will thaw off soon to let me continue 😀

Good bye and thanks for the support from reading and commenting. I love you all!!


And THAT people, would be my last article to all of you reading out there. I hope you all would get a life and stop mourning for my blog’s death. NOT!! That wasn’t a REAL REAL last article!! That’s just the meme I got from Cedric the monkey and 5xmom the K-Mak of the monkey 😀

Whoa…that was long…didn’t know I had it in me XD anyways it’s my turn to tag people around here, right?!?!? And besides, if the person who created this tag gets 500 participants, he’s gonna donate $500 to some charity. So it’s ALL for a good cause, kthx!!

So I’m gonna tag :

Well, enjoy this tag my beloved tagees 😀 And remember to link back to “The Urban Monk” so that he knows when he gets more participants I bet he did this to get up in ranks XD and tag me too kthx ^^ and all who aren’t tagged, you of course can participate as well 😀 $500 to charity is a fair amount to a Malaysian right? $500 = RM1750!!! Anyways I’m off to do another tag XD truly a tagged day =O


Ooooh Boy…

What’s up with the male species these days, hmm? Are their Y chromosome shrinking or are males having less testosterone lately?

::::::::::::::::::::Scene One::::::::::::::::::::

Female : How are you these days, Male #1?

Male #1 : Not bad, Female, in fact, after meeting you, I felt much cheerful and all I can say is, I love you.

Female : …You love me? But we don’t even know each other…

Male #1 : I know 😀 that’s the best part!! It’s as if you’re my soul mate!! My soul felt like it’s known you before 😀

Female : …

::::::::::::::::::::Scene Two::::::::::::::::::::

Female : Hi Male #2 😀 you said you wanted to tell me something?

Male #2 : Yea, Female…you know how we been friends a while? Well…

Female : Yes?

Male #2 : Well, Female, I’ve always been in love with you…

Female : …Why are you telling me this now?

Male #2 : I can’t just bottle it up anymore D:

Female : …

::::::::::::::::::::Scene Three::::::::::::::::::::

Female : How’s life Male #3?

Male #3 : Not bad. You?

Female : Not bad too 😀 omg!! I so want to go to Perth and live my life there!!

Male #3 : Really? So do I! Wanna go there together?

Female : Sure, but where am I spose to get the money? Lol…oh well, i can still dream 😛

Male #3 : Am I in it?

Female : …


As you all know, I just recently had a fight with my ex-boyfriend, Greg, ending up broken. Well, just recently, I started to feel up to it to face the world again and all of a sudden I receive this kind of mix signals all over…what is happening? Are their bodies/mind tuned into my “She’s single!!” brainwave? Ish!!

::::::::::::::::::::SMS with I::::::::::::::::::::

So anyways, lately, I have been receiving SMSes from a certain guy, I. He’s a Malay guy and he’s studying to be a pilot. Now he’s in the midst of his Industrial Training where he is placed at the helicopters, maintaining and such. So now, we have some not-so-frequent SMSes between us and this is how a part of it went :

I : Hey there…what’s up, hope everything is going pretty well.

Me : Everything is fine except for being busy 😛 and how are you?

When he didn’t reply :

Me : Are you mad that I didn’t reply early? Was in a seminar. Couldn’t reply till last night. Sorry.

I : So sorry my dear, I should have told you earlier. My handphone is having problems sending smses. Darn annoying and the answer is no. I’m not mad at you. You’re such a darling. I’m the one whose at fault. Sorry.

And when he told me he was tired (he always said he was tired :O ) :

Me : Why are you always tired anyways?

I : Aircraft repairs related work. I had to move a helicopter from one hanger to another alone without any special tools lol.

Me : Eh? What happened to “goodwill among men”? Why no one helped?

I : Cause I’m superman…

Me : Lol. But batman is way cooler. He’s a normal human being who works alone most of the times.

I : But I seriously think he would rather be in my shoes if he had a choice. No, I’m positive. You sure you prefer batman? I could take you to the moon anytime.

Me : Well, only if I get to see the men oof the moon and find the cheese he hides there as well as the cow that went over the moon. Then I’ll choose superman any day 😀

I : Consider your wish fulfilled. Hang on to me princess, we’ll be there in no time.

Me : Well, I’ll keep you to that promise then.

And recently when I just sent an SMS saying “Hi” :

Me : Hiyas, you don’t have to reply. I just wanted to say “Hi” 🙂

I : Oh but I insist. Betcha miss me huh…awww…miss you too…

What does all these mean? I have no idea…is he trying to say he likes me? Or is he just having a good nature bantering between the both of us? Or maybe he’s just playing me for a fool? Or maybe he’s gotten influenced by how the foreigners like to use endearments? -Sighs- It could be anything x.x

::::::::::::::::::::MSN with S::::::::::::::::::::

This just happened yesterday morning when I was waiting for Woan Ling to show up, which she was LATE FOR!! Anyways, he was asking me if I knew where to get something :

Me : Mm no.

S : By the way if its not too much trouble…SAY HI ONCE AND A WHILE!!!!!!!! it makes me feel special when people say hi. :3

Me : Been busy, didn’t say “Hi” to others.

S : So? I don’t care who you DIDN’T say hi to I don’t care who your with you can at least say hi to your friend -_- I’m not asking for a full conversation o_O just say hi i ask you how your doing you answer i follow it up and thats it. I mean. I know I’m not the most important person. But hey. I did “entertain” you for a month. Lil over a month.

Me : -sighs- I’m sorry, I haven’t been in the mood considering it’s been over between me and Greg for a couple of days now.

S : Well see. I don’t know that since you never tell me anything. I’m still your friend aren’t I? o_o

Me : Yea.

S : By the way I uh…I’ve changed a lot since we were together not that you could notice from this conversation I guess

Me : That’s good to hear, well, if it’s for the best that is. If it’s for the worst then I’m sorry to hear that.

S : Eh, well I’m not a pushover anymore, I’m not as invasive. If you start hanging around me again then well you could find out. By the way how is school? Mines doing good. My GPA is 4.1 ;o

Ok…how the hell does someone get GPA 4.2?!?!?! I thought the max was 4.0 o_O oh well, it’s a US citizen…maybe it’s different? O_o but anyways, let’s skip all that to the later part…:

S : It may be un-needed but just to let you know. I still love you.

Me : Well I hope it’s like 0.1% considering you have this Marie you love 🙂

S : Oh no, it’s full strenght. However I am with someone else, and I don’t expect to get with you I just had to say that.

Me : Oh…

S : It’s just easier to ignore because I know you have no more feelings for me.

Me : I’m sorry again for the last time though, I didn’t mean to do that though.

S : It’s ok, it’s happened before. Just. Not that bad XD no worries. I’m good.

Me : Feelings doesn’t go away. It just becomes fond memories 🙂 Anyways tell me about this Marie, is she nice? Well, I assume she is cause you like her lol

S : Yeah, she’s nice ^^ she actually says how she feels and so on, expresses what she thinks XD sometimes without thinking XD

Me : 🙂 good. Grats for the both of you. Things are much better if you share stuffs like feelings.

S : I’m still here for you to talk to, Jess. Yeah, you never shared what you thought with me which is why what happened, happened XD. You know what hurt the most? When you posted up on your message that you’d been with Greg for 9 months or so. As if us didn’t happen. Like I didn’t matter. But that’s in the past I guess XD

Me : I said that but I also said “parted” too. Meaning that 9 months + the time we broke up. Meaning that although there was a gap in between, I only counted the time we knew each other.

S : XD yea yea anyway

Me : Besides that’s another scrapbook to keep away now.

S : Stop using analogies ._. you’re confusing me. Lol XD

Me : Well, I’m being more matured and erm old and erm spinster-like considering I’ve just turned 20 lol.

And then we started talking about my birthday and such but let’s skip all that 😛

S : Ok well old person, what happened between you and pebbles? 😛

Me : He found out that I blocked him…for ONE day cause I didn’t want him to get his hopes up when he sees me for 10 minutes and I go off for the next couple of weeks again…

S : Oh so you’re just going to get back together again lol

Me : No…I don’t think so…

S : Heh

Me : Cause according to me busy University schedule. It’s better to not be together cause he’ll just go emotional for not seeing me a long time…again. I don’t want that though and I probably won’t live past 2 years. So it’s WAY better 🙂

S : STFU about the dying crap 😛 or I’ll beat you ;3 got it missy!?!

Me : Well then, that means you haven’t been reading my latest post which I password protected it after being public for 4 hours at most 🙂 oh well.

S : I’m sorry, I don’t “stalk” you anymore

Me : Funny…greg said “stalked” too…

S : Well you did say that I stalk you before. Which is why I said that. Mainly because you fail to understand that i was using something i did not know how to use in order to call you.

Me : I get it already…and luckily…I’m not prone to be emotional cause I really feel like crying now

S : Though I will admit I was a bit wacky -_- crying for what? Pebbles? -_-

Me : Maybe, maybe not

S : There is no sense beating around the bush, Jess

Me : But my job is to beat around the bush till the client spills all

S : Yeah, but guess what Jessica…I’m not one of your client

Me : Maybe I’m doing it to myself, hmm?

S : Don’t be all analytical. Make things simple for once why don’t you? You always complicate things more than they should

Me : Lecturers have been saying things to us, I can’t help it. They told us, when we feel down, take a day off then come back being normal again after. Maybe that’s why I wanted this profession, it has me written all over 😛

S : A crazy person can’t be helped if the helper is crazy themselves 😛

Me : That’s why I am not crazy? I am rational at all time, kthx

S : Rational my ass XD

Me : I’m eccentric-ly rational 😛

S : Lol I love you XD

Me : Oh psh

S : you brat 😛

Me : I’m no brat, I’m an old bat

S : Ye ol’ bratty bat

Me : I can’t wait to migrate to Australia and adopt kids and just live a solitary life with em

S : Pshaw, I’ll be bugging your happy ass

Me : D:

S : Why do you think I’m trying so hard? In school.

Me : o_o why? For your future of course

S : Well, yea. But there’s more to it than that

Me : Erm…to be all-knowing?

S : Eh no c’mon don’t act stupid

Me : You know I’m damn stupid =.=”

S : Don’t start that shit XD C’mon Jess, gimme an honest guess

Me : Ever wonder why I went into psychology? To use confusing words to confuse my clients into talking. I don’thave to guess.

S : The tell me the answer

Me : I meant I don’t have to guess the client. The client tells all

S : I’m not your freakin’ client, I’m your fucking friend

Me : Thus why I don’t get what you’re saying -sighs-

S : Thus my ass XD

Me : …

S : C’mon Jess, I know you’re not that stupid

Me : I’m like an ostrich with her head in the ground, S…

S : I noticed, and I’m gonna yank it if you don’t pull it out…that didn’t sound right…but you get the idea 😛

Me : Erm…you’re studying damn hard to…come to Australia to bug me?

S : Well yea. I want to go to school with you…I want to be near you in general. I have enough money to go to Malaysia and back 4 times and a GPA that could get a scholarship bu just saying Hi…this is all thanks to my beloved AP courses XD and I love history…

Me : I hope you meant that in a double way that Marie is in Malaysia too o_o

S : o_o; I guess I’m bragging but I don’t mean to look like I’m bragging or look self centered x.x no she lives in Canada, in Toronto. I don’t know what I’m gonna do XD but I’ll figure it out I guess o.o maybe meeting me would uhm cause you to like me again…but I don’t know

Me : Ok…I have no idea what to say except that you should be holding onto Marie. cause to tell you the truth, I’m planning to just keep single now

S : Who said anything about it happening now

Me : Life would be WAY better if I’m a old spinster 😀 old meaning that I die as one XD

S : Ye won’t 😛 I won’t letcha XP

Me : Why are you doing this to me knowing that I just got out of another relationship…painfully -sighs-

S : Jess, I’m not asking you to be with me now, I’m asking you to talk to me, that’s it.

Then we started going into other topics cause he knows he’s stressing me out I guess? And that was about it…Ok, to give you a brief idea. When I broke up with Greg, after a few months, I started dating S. But then Greg wanted to get back with me again and I just don’t feel that S and I really clicked so I told Greg, yes. So when S found out, we had a huge fight over it and then he tried to emotionally blackmail me back my saying he wanted to die, he’s dying and such but no, I didn’t retun and stuck to Greg…till now that is……

::::::::::::::::::::MSN with D::::::::::::::::::::

Ok well, this is going to be hard cause I can’t seem to get the earlier history for our conversation. Basically he was saying that he has had a bad relationship where the girl he used to date was dating him a week and the next thing he knew she left him and got impregnated by another guy. Like omg!! I’m feeling sorry for D, really!! So I said not to worry because there are better girls than her in the world and that he shouldn’t be so caught up in that. And he said yea, he already found her…and that’s me o_o so I decided to tell him stuffs about me

Beginning : (Can’t remember how it went but basically like this)

Me : I’mma make a server but I need to keep money for a dedicated host 😀

D : Hmm, if you married me, you won’t have to worry about those lol

Me : Why’s that?

D : Well you obviously don’t know what a future tech (something can’t remember what) earns.

Me : How much?

D : About $500 per hour (hour/day, not sure D: )

Me : Lol not that desperate to marry into money XD

Later : (I have the history records for these at least 😀 )

Me : You know what?

D : ?

Me : The other day on my birthday, my friends told me that I am of bad girlfriend quality.

D : Why?

Me : Well, they said I am a expensive girl with expensive taste XD Did I mention I get bored easily? Another reason why you shouldn’t like me 😛

D : One thing you should know about me. I’m a very thicj brick wall and the only thing that’s gonna break me is a missile.

Me : And what kinda missile is that?

D : The missile my ex holds

Me : D: you know I won’t do that…too traditional for my own good…

Well…that’s all I remember but there was more to it that disappeared from my MSN history list…cause I remember asking him how come he likes me even if he haven’t seen me before and he said that I haven’t seen him as well yet I’m still friends with him and well you get what I mean. He even told me he wanted to live in Perth with me cause I told him before that I wanted to move there…when I said, it might not come true about me living there cause I haven’t the money and he asked if he was in that dream of mine as well…

-Sighs- is it too late for me to go in Lesbianisme? Cause I think I should either convert into a Lesbian or lock myself up in a monastery and I heard I get to live longer as a nun 😀

Also, a friend of mine is ALSO having this problem…granted that she’s pretty good looking, intelligent and as fair a snow white!! They can both shout into the mirror and ask “Mirror, mirror on the wall, whose the fairest of them all?!?!” and the mirror will think for YEARS and still not get an answer XD

The whole point of this article is…are men the ones now looking for love and companionships rather than the females nowadays? Are the roles of men and women starting to switch between each other? I mean, personally, I think wanting to be together all the time with the same person is boring…I need my own space and other people too…not just one 😛

So what are your opinions on this, hmm? Oh wow…such a long article XD

and now I shall end it with a quote :

Relationships are like buses. You miss the first bus, never mind, catch the next bus. And if you miss the next bus as well, no worries, there are more where that came from 😀

by Mr Sivan, Counseling Skills Lecturer of UTAR


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